After a series of unofficial statements made both on her behalf and Seo Taiji, actress Lee Ji Ah has finally come forward by releasing her own press report through her official homepage.
Her post reads as follows:
“This is Lee Ji Ah.
I would like to first apologize for not being able to be honest with who I am towards everyone. For the past 10 days, I’ve experienced something that was difficult for me to withstand on my own.
First, there was no settlement made before I withdrew my lawsuit. There have been so many speculations and rumors these past few days, that I felt it was necessary for me to directly clarify the matter myself. I’ve mustered the bravery to write this today, but even at this moment, I’m scared as to whether my honest truth will be delivered properly.I was scared… and I spent day after day thinking that my heart would just melt away… I hope that my truth was delivered properly to you..
I was young, but we loved with trust and hope, and I gave up so many things that I should have had at that age. Still, I never once regarded that person’s love with anything other than my heart.
Before I even knew what the world was all about, I had to be hidden away. The influence that had on my life and the wounds that resulted from it cannot be explained in words.
Having to live life through different names, I was always questioning my identity and never sure of who I really was… I couldn’t regard my family and friends with the freedom of thought and mind. I was misunderstood as someone that was cold and hard to approach, and I was never able to have a wholesome relationship with anyone.
I was pained in that I was not able to live life as who I was. I lost my freedom.
The reason why I was not able to live what everyone else would consider a normal life was because I respected that person’s decision in not wanting to let anyone see me. I believed that was love, so I left my parents and myself for him. The path I chose, however, wounded me and gave me so much trauma. It made my whole existence meaningless, which I didn’t know at the time.
I wished for a long time to be able to live as myself, but because I was hidden away for so long, I was also scared of finally showing who I was.
In 2006, the reason why everything was put to an end so abruptly was because I wanted to just forget everything and move on to treating my wounds. We believed at the time that that would be the best way in leaving each other without regrets. Unfortunately, reality wasn’t so forgiving.
As time went on, my wounds grew deeper, and every time the truth and promises that I believed in became broken… They were left as wounds that I could never treat.
Although late, I found my path as an actress and tried to live how I wanted, but I could never be completely ‘me.’ I hid myself and cried and cried over the many rumors and misunderstandings that my opaque past brought about with the public.
So many times, I wanted to open my burnt, black heart and scream out that I was having a hard time, that I needed consolation.. but there was nobody I could tell that, or depend on and lean on for support. I lived half of my life under such loneliness.
I’m here today because I want my past to be understood.. and to also find the true me.
I, too, did not know that the conflict would come to this extent as I filed the lawsuit. I did not have any intention of bringing that person down and truly believed that we would be able to resolve this as harmoniously as possible.
But now… I am at an unfortunate situation where my opinions are clashing against someone that I’ve known for so long about our past. We’ve worked on designing, styling and other visual jobs together.. and worked together for so many other things..
The memories that we shared together, the pain and effort that we shared together, are now coming back as pain. This conflict is only bringing both of us down, and I now believe that it is meaningless.
I decided to withdraw my lawsuit because I predicted that the conflict would only get longer.. and that I would never be able to get back my time and life that will be spent dwelling on this issue in the future. For everyone, for my fans.. I do not want to sacrifice their hearts.
Once news of my lawsuit were revealed, it was no longer an issue between the two of us.
I want to go back to my position and work hard under the support of my fans… but I keep getting weaker…. and I keep crumbling……….. I am just so apologetic towards my parents, and for all of those concerned for me.”
Source: IS Sports via Naver
Translate:
After a series of unofficial statements made both on her behalf and Seo Taiji, actress Lee Ji Ah has finally come forward by releasing her own press report through her official homepage.
Her post reads as follows:
“This is Lee Ji Ah.Source: IS Sports via Naver
I would like to first apologize for not being able to be honest with who I am towards everyone. For the past 10 days, I’ve experienced something that was difficult for me to withstand on my own.
First, there was no settlement made before I withdrew my lawsuit. There have been so many speculations and rumors these past few days, that I felt it was necessary for me to directly clarify the matter myself. I’ve mustered the bravery to write this today, but even at this moment, I’m scared as to whether my honest truth will be delivered properly.I was scared… and I spent day after day thinking that my heart would just melt away… I hope that my truth was delivered properly to you..
I was young, but we loved with trust and hope, and I gave up so many things that I should have had at that age. Still, I never once regarded that person’s love with anything other than my heart.
Before I even knew what the world was all about, I had to be hidden away. The influence that had on my life and the wounds that resulted from it cannot be explained in words.
Having to live life through different names, I was always questioning my identity and never sure of who I really was… I couldn’t regard my family and friends with the freedom of thought and mind. I was misunderstood as someone that was cold and hard to approach, and I was never able to have a wholesome relationship with anyone.
I was pained in that I was not able to live life as who I was. I lost my freedom.
The reason why I was not able to live what everyone else would consider a normal life was because I respected that person’s decision in not wanting to let anyone see me. I believed that was love, so I left my parents and myself for him. The path I chose, however, wounded me and gave me so much trauma. It made my whole existence meaningless, which I didn’t know at the time.
I wished for a long time to be able to live as myself, but because I was hidden away for so long, I was also scared of finally showing who I was.
In 2006, the reason why everything was put to an end so abruptly was because I wanted to just forget everything and move on to treating my wounds. We believed at the time that that would be the best way in leaving each other without regrets. Unfortunately, reality wasn’t so forgiving.
As time went on, my wounds grew deeper, and every time the truth and promises that I believed in became broken… They were left as wounds that I could never treat.
Although late, I found my path as an actress and tried to live how I wanted, but I could never be completely ‘me.’ I hid myself and cried and cried over the many rumors and misunderstandings that my opaque past brought about with the public.
So many times, I wanted to open my burnt, black heart and scream out that I was having a hard time, that I needed consolation.. but there was nobody I could tell that, or depend on and lean on for support. I lived half of my life under such loneliness.
I’m here today because I want my past to be understood.. and to also find the true me.
I, too, did not know that the conflict would come to this extent as I filed the lawsuit. I did not have any intention of bringing that person down and truly believed that we would be able to resolve this as harmoniously as possible.
But now… I am at an unfortunate situation where my opinions are clashing against someone that I’ve known for so long about our past. We’ve worked on designing, styling and other visual jobs together.. and worked together for so many other things..
The memories that we shared together, the pain and effort that we shared together, are now coming back as pain. This conflict is only bringing both of us down, and I now believe that it is meaningless.
I decided to withdraw my lawsuit because I predicted that the conflict would only get longer.. and that I would never be able to get back my time and life that will be spent dwelling on this issue in the future. For everyone, for my fans.. I do not want to sacrifice their hearts.
Once news of my lawsuit were revealed, it was no longer an issue between the two of us.
I want to go back to my position and work hard under the support of my fans… but I keep getting weaker…. and I keep crumbling……….. I am just so apologetic towards my parents, and for all of those concerned for me.”
Translate:
Kini akhirnya Lee Ji Ah mengeluarkan pernyataan resminya sendiri melalui situs resminya.Ia memposting-nya sebagai berikut:
“Ini adalah Lee Ji Ah
Pertama saya ingin meminta maaf karena tidak bisa jujur terhadap semua orang. Selama 10 hari terakhir, saya mengalami sesuatu yang sulit untuk bertahan sendiri.
Pertama, tidak ada hal yang dibuat sebelum aku menarik gugatan saya. Ada begitu banyak spekulasi dan rumor beberapa hari terakhir, dan aku merasa itu perlu mengatakan langsung untuk mengklarifikasi masalah saya sendiri. Saya sudah mengumpulkan keberanian untuk menulisnya hari ini, tetapi bahkan saat ini, aku takut, apakah kebenaran dan kejujuran saya adalah tepat.
Saya masih muda, tapi kami mencintai dengan kepercayaan dan harapan, dan aku menyerah begitu banyak hal pada usia itu. Namun, saya tidak pernah menyakiti hati orang lain dengan mencintai orang lain.
Sebelum aku memberi tahu pada dunia semua ini, saya harus menyembunyikan. Ini mempengaruhi kehidupan saya dan luka yang dihasilkan dari itu tidak bisa dijelaskan dengan kata-kata.
Setelah menjalani kehidupan melalui nama yang berbeda, aku selalu mempertanyakan identitas saya dan tidak pernah yakin tentang siapa saya sebenarnya … saya tidak bisa menganggap keluarga saya dan teman-teman dengan kebebasan berpikir dan pikiran. Saya disalahpahami sebagai seseorang yang dingin dan keras didekati, dan aku tidak pernah bisa memiliki hubungan yang sehat dengan siapa pun.
Saya sedih karena saya tidak mampu menjalani hidup sebagai siapa aku yang sebenarnya. Saya kehilangan kebebasan saya.
Alasan mengapa saya tidak bisa hidup seperti orang lain yang menganggap kehidupan normal, karena saya menghormati keputusan orang itu dengan tidak ingin membiarkan siapa pun melihat saya. Saya percaya dengan cinta, jadi aku meninggalkan orang tua saya dan saya sendiri untuk dia. Keputusan yang saya pilih, bagaimanapun, luka saya dan membuat saya trauma begitu banyak. Hal itu membuat seluruh keberadaan saya berarti, yang saya tidak tahu pada waktu itu.
Saya berharap untuk waktu yang lama bisa hidup sebagai diriku sendiri, tapi karena saya bersembunyi begitu lama, saya juga takut untuk menunjukkan siapa aku.
Pada tahun 2006, alasan mengapa semuanya berakhir di meja hukum adalah begitu tiba-tiba,karena aku hanya ingin melupakan semuanya dan beralih untuk mengobati luka saya. Kami percaya pada saat itu adalah cara terbaik dalam meninggalkan satu sama lain tanpa penyesalan. Sayangnya, kenyataannya tidak begitu mudah untuk dimaafkan.
Seiring berjalannya waktu, luka saya tumbuh lebih dalam, dan setiap kali kebenaran dan janji-janji yang saya percaya menjadi rusak … Mereka tersisa sebagai luka yang tak pernah bisa mengobati.
Meskipun terlambat, saya menemukan jalan saya sebagai seorang aktris dan mencoba untuk hidup bagaimana yang aku inginkan, tapi aku tidak akan pernah bisa benar-benar menyembunyikan diri dan menangis dan menangis atas banyak rumor dan kesalahpahaman di masa lalu dengan masyarakat.
Jadi berkali-kali, saya ingin terbuka, hati kecilku berteriak bahwa aku mengalami kesulitan, bahwa saya memerlukan hiburan .. tapi ada seorang pun aku tahu tentang itu, atau yang bisa diajak bersandar untuk mendukung. Saya tinggal setengah dari hidup saya di bawah kesepian tersebut.
Aku di sini hari ini karena saya ingin masa lalu saya harus dipahami .. dan juga untuk menemukan diri sayang yang sebenarnya.
Aku juga tidak tahu bahwa konflik akan datang sejauh ini karena saya mengajukan gugatan. Saya tidak punya maksud untuk membawa orang itu ke dan benar-benar percaya bahwa kita akan mampu menyelesaikan ini dengan baik-baik.
Tapi sekarang … saya berada pada situasi yang tidak menguntungkan di mana pendapat saya akan menjadi bentrok terhadap seseorang yang saya kenal begitu lama tentang masa lalu saya. Kami telah bekerja pada desain, gaya dan pekerjaan visual lainnya bersama-sama .. dan bekerja sama untuk hal-hal lain yang begitu banyak ..
Kenangan kami saat berbagi bersama, rasa sakit dan usaha yang kami berbagi bersama, kini datang kembali sebagai rasa sakit. Konflik ini hanya membawa kita berdua muncul, dan sekarang saya percaya bahwa itu ada artinya.
Saya memutuskan untuk mencabut gugatan saya karena saya memprediksi hal itu hanya membawa konflik lagi .. dan bahwa aku tidak akan pernah bisa mendapatkan waktu kembali dan kehidupan yang akan dihabiskan untuk memikirkan masalah ini di masa depan. Untuk semua orang, untuk penggemar saya .. Saya tidak ingin mengorbankan hati mereka.
Setelah berita tentang gugatan saya diturunkan, itu tidak lagi menjadi masalah antara kami berdua.
Aku takut … dan aku menghabiskan hari setelah berpikir untuk hari ini, hati saya hanya akan mencair … Saya berharap bahwa kebenaran yang saya sampaikan dengan tepat untuk kalian ..
Saya ingin kembali ke posisi saya dan bekerja keras di bawah dukungan fans saya … tapi aku terus semakin lemah …. dan aku tetap runtuh … … … .. Saya hanya sangat menyesal terhadap orang tua saya, dan bagi semua yang peduli terhadap saya. “
VIA: AKP
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